Pain

Today feel kind of sadx....now ii noe..ytd ii was just acting tough by not crying...today wake up wid heavy flu and cough..found my family was okie now..accepting the truth..kind of relieve...den my sis and mum go market...left mii, my bro and dad at home...b4 mum go out..we actually hab a small conflict...den ...my bro said 'go ite is ur fault, you still angry over mum..reflect on ur attitude' -.=" den ii was thinking and reflecting...ate flu medicine..feel a bit drowsy so ii went to slp a while...11am..mum came home wid sis den ii go kitchen find mum. She said' uh tmr.' den she stopped. I asked her ' what?' den she said nth...den ii asked her ' you wan mii to study ma?' she said ' you wan to study or not is ur prob.' den ii said back ' den don study la, lose your face onli ma' den ii walked to my room..lying on my bed..so tired and so heart broken..haiis den my sis come in and said ' mum wan ask you tmr wan go market ma, she saw a dress very nice but don noe you wan ma den you just now kip saying no.' den ii told my sis, ii said 'no' is to different topic. Den ii cried and cried and cried..den my mum came in..said...'choose the place not too far de if not every morning you hab to wake up early den others den you will tired..' den suddenly ii really feel sorry tat ii disappoint her..den cried for a long while den my mum asked mii to eat lunch..went to kitchen..she told mi 'study hard..since other don believe ite can earn more than poly, prove to them that they are wrong.' den ii replied ' i wan go poly after ite' den she said 'um' ...my dad...is the one tat cant faced the fact..and he now always give mii tat face...tat expression...and ii hate that..den he said..study hotel for 1 yr den come out work ..ii said k..maybe..

Now was in dilema...don noe should ii work or go ite study...now ii really hate..really hate my math tcher for telling mii the scale is always accurate in o level paper...ass...zz