This year new year

woot been decade since ii blog, cos my com SPOILT!!!! Wa lao~ life without com is BORING!! LOL but luckily ii had a full bag of novel for mii to read so wont be so boring~ and why am ii able to blog now lehHx? Cos~ i am using my uncle hse com~ l0ls~

Woot it isn't tat bad~ this year new year thou is boring ( my dad side) but it was fun~ yea l0ls! the 1st day of new year, went to my dad side a while den watch the scary movie4, flush away l0ls den after tat went to my mum side~ until nxt morning 3am~ LOL went there play cards den play truth or dare LOL !! Fun game siax~ after tat the 1st batch of kids~ which is age range from 15-20 de all gather xD den share one can of tiger beer~ ahahah fun yea~?

My dad side no one actually made any comment about mii going ITE~ rather they said, it's okie,~ ITE wasn't tat bad, actually can learn more thing den the poly~ l0ls ii feel encourage and ii had the courage to face the future now-no matter issit bad or good...

Well it's really fun! ahahah den the 2nd day of new years, went to my dad side a while watch HOWL'S THE MOVING CASTLE..watch untl halfway!! WA LAO!! I really want to watch again T_T ii wan watch laa!!! why watch halfway? Cos after tat my mum ask mii wan to malaysia ma~ l0ls den ii said okie l0ohHx~ WHY? COS MY DAD SIDE ONLI FEW PPL COME~ dam boring de...l0ls wa lao but it's a pity ii cant finish watching howl moving castle~!! Zzz ii die die must buy the CD!!!! T.T haiis

Den stay in malaysia for 1 night, the nxt day~ which is the 3rd day of new year, we came back from malaysia at about 3pm+ den all come my hse eat steamboat~ l0ls well tat's it~

This year is a happy but boring new year

Btw all~ Late wishes!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Pain

Today feel kind of sadx....now ii noe..ytd ii was just acting tough by not crying...today wake up wid heavy flu and cough..found my family was okie now..accepting the truth..kind of relieve...den my sis and mum go market...left mii, my bro and dad at home...b4 mum go out..we actually hab a small conflict...den ...my bro said 'go ite is ur fault, you still angry over mum..reflect on ur attitude' -.=" den ii was thinking and reflecting...ate flu medicine..feel a bit drowsy so ii went to slp a while...11am..mum came home wid sis den ii go kitchen find mum. She said' uh tmr.' den she stopped. I asked her ' what?' den she said nth...den ii asked her ' you wan mii to study ma?' she said ' you wan to study or not is ur prob.' den ii said back ' den don study la, lose your face onli ma' den ii walked to my room..lying on my bed..so tired and so heart broken..haiis den my sis come in and said ' mum wan ask you tmr wan go market ma, she saw a dress very nice but don noe you wan ma den you just now kip saying no.' den ii told my sis, ii said 'no' is to different topic. Den ii cried and cried and cried..den my mum came in..said...'choose the place not too far de if not every morning you hab to wake up early den others den you will tired..' den suddenly ii really feel sorry tat ii disappoint her..den cried for a long while den my mum asked mii to eat lunch..went to kitchen..she told mi 'study hard..since other don believe ite can earn more than poly, prove to them that they are wrong.' den ii replied ' i wan go poly after ite' den she said 'um' ...my dad...is the one tat cant faced the fact..and he now always give mii tat face...tat expression...and ii hate that..den he said..study hotel for 1 yr den come out work ..ii said k..maybe..

Now was in dilema...don noe should ii work or go ite study...now ii really hate..really hate my math tcher for telling mii the scale is always accurate in o level paper...ass...zz

Fact

Today got back my result...the 1st feeling is..'oh souka, just as expected' so ii don hab any feelin at all..den my tcher kip comforting mii and said ' you are hardworking but...well it's the same, it's just you need to take a longer route tat's all, just like mii ' l0ls...kkx...now..you guess should noe ii go to ITE...with tat kind of result -.=" but ii really..don noe y...feel kind of relieve? l0ls...at least ii had found a few course ii wan in ITE...and ii don nid to feel troubled on what to wear everyday in poly life ahHx...but the prob lies to my mum ^^

I noe how she feel..ii noe tat it will make her lose face in front of the other relative...but...the fact is the fact..ii cant do anything..thou now when friends ask mii whr ii gg now..the moment ii say ITE..ii cold sweat -.=" l0ls ii am not blaming my mum for being sooo naggy..comparing mii and others...cos ii noe..ii disappoint her..as well as those who trust ii can do it..no matter wad..ii will do my best..show my mum...even in ITE, ii can still go to poly..just a longer route..tat's all..yea..zzz the moment ii go poly..ii maybe 24 yrs old lao ah ma liaox lohHx l0ls...but..haiis face the fact bahx..

Today went home with this kind of result..mum 1st thing is show mii black face..ahahah den...ii just diam diam...went to shower..just feel kind of headache..after tat ii went locked in my room....den after some lecturing given by dad...my mum realise her mistake( the attitude) den she talked to mii le...l0ls somemore..just now..she asked mii wan some love novel? Our neighbour got alot but wanna throw away(it's a waste) so my mum help mii ask tat auntie for the novel...can feel tt my mum accept the truth le bahHx....

Sorry mum, sorry dad..sorry those who ii disappointed them...really gomen nasai!!!

Sick and Tired

Man...today a lot of things happened...kae...b4 ii state out wad happened....ii really wan to scold and curse the one who cre8 this new system for the blog....K`nn ass h*le freak siax!! Everytime already dam pissed and wanna post smth in blog, it make the whole system lag and cant login to post!!

Yesterday..Sunday..suddenly feel giddy and start vomitted....and den...ii start to hab slight fever...k nvm..eat panadol and flu medicine ( cos ii hab blocked and running nose -.=" ) den eat, went to bed early cos my cousin and ii hab planned to work in coffee fac today, so ii mit her 7.30am. Kae wake up at 6.30am..tot everything was quite okie...god noes...when ii went to shower...ii vomit...zzz WTH~! l0ls...crap right?...zzz den went to work...stand outside the fac at about 7.45am ( cos the agent told us to do so) w8 and w8 and w8...finally my cousin said, called the agent...the blur agent said...' huh? you wan work mehx? i tot you said you don wanna work le..' den...my cousin and ii had conclude it as...tis agent is so blur tat..she heard wrongly..zzz she rushed down...den about 8.10am she reached...l0ls....we walked into the factory..den..guess wad!!! No job available...wa kaox....zzz ask us leave our contact nos den tell us can go home le...dam freak pissed off a bit..zzz go home...my famly not at home...alone in the house...zzz ii went to slp..feeling terrible...it took mii an hr to fell asleep ( cos ii am feeling terrible..and ii nid to bend a bit in order to feel comfortable ) ..finally can slp....my dad called mii..zzz ask mii whr m ii, ii said ii at hme..den he said ' ok, wanna come find us?' ii said..no..ii feeling very very very terrible now...den he said okie, he come back den take medicine for mii...zzz k...finally can slp le...another called from dad again..ask mii wanna eat wad...ii said my throat very pain...cant swallow things..den he said eat smth..den ii said porridge bahx...zzz den my mum ans the fone..said wan eat noodle? ii said anything....(i just wanna slp..zz)...few mins ltr .zzz my cousin called mii...zzz said she found a job..from newspaper, but nid today interview..zzz ii was .like....oh gosh wad a nice day!!! zzz den she asked mii to call the person...zzz ii am having a dam great headache tat time...den ii said okok. Called the person...finally den called my cousin...confirmed...suddenly..don feel like slping le..duhz!!! Take my temperature...(38.7 degree) Pissed..den dad and mum came home..just nice...zzz haiis...den ii eat the noodle...zz after tat ..ii went to mit my cousin at 1.30pm..but ii reached there early...it was drizzling..zzz dam tired and headache..and a bit no mood..zzz slp in mrt for a short while...reached otrum? den ...change train to clarke quay...guess wad....zzz out from exit E...we were walking round and round the clarke quay..reason: cos we don noe whr's the place...( TAKE NOTE : my thigh , arms, legs, hands was aching cos...last sat ii went to play bball wid my bro..just like wad ii said in the previous blog..) we were walking like...zzz somemore..there's drizzling for a short while...zzz after the interview..we went to bugis for another interview at about 7.15pm..reached there...well mani ppl are quite friendly..is smth about promoting the products..and...both jobs we interview today...don hab a fixed salary...it is based on how many ppl or how many ticket you were able to sell or promote the products to...ii find it's quite fun..well seriously speaking...ii wish to find those jobs tat allow mii to communicate and allow mii to be more sociable. I wish to travel and i wish to get to know more ppl, i don mind there is not a fixed salary..ii just wished ii can learn smth from wad ii work...and ii am glad to be able to earn the amount of salary tat is equivalent to the amount of hardwork ii put in...ii don like jobs tat are so bored, working for more than 10hrs, thou a fixed salary..ii cant learn anything from there....ya maybe learn how to package..but hey...is this gg to be something useful for my future? NO..ii am not gg to do packaging for lifes....zzz wad ii wan is communication skill...something more...ii don wish my future is to work at the factory 6days per week $60 per day...it's boring!

Den during the interview, it's quite fun xD but...hmmx..my mum missed called mii 6 times and ii didn't notice it..(cos ii put silence mode) den my mum called my cousin...so we go off...my cousin doesn't seem to be interested in jobs tat doesn't hab a fixed salary. Den...ii called my mum..and guess wad..zzz my mum scold mii..zz dam loud tat ii hab to make a distance btw the handphone and my ears..reason she scold mii : Y so late still haben come back?! Don hab job den come back le lohHx. den ii told her..maybe tmr ii gg to work in fac....den she said ' work in fac tmr still don wanna come back!' the time ii called her was ard 9.30pm....l0ls...reached home le..finally..dam tired..told my mum wad happened...den..guess wad she said..' y yanling can get such a good job by finding thru newspaper and you always find those jobs without fixed salary?' well seriously...from wad ii said just now..and wad uu see now...my mum..don understand mii...l0ls...and seriously..tat newspaper whr yanling found her current jobs...when she gave this newspaper to mii...ii didn't find a jobs tat show wad yanling is currently working as..so very obvious...zzz this job is introduce either by relative or friends...den ii told my mum..' you always believe wad other's said. You said she found this job from newspaper, ii glance thru the newspaper so mani times, NV EVEN SEE THE ADVERTISEMENT! Stop comparing mii and her jobs can ma!' Den she replied..' i am not comparing' ....den ...maybe bcos..ii am tired and finally reached home..tot my mum can support mii by saying few words but ended up comparing mii wid gurl ii don like..plus...ii still feeling very terrible...ii talked back...zzz ' you not comparing!? You said the sentence is already comparing!' Den ii walked out of her room..wanna use com..(my bro is using) ii said ' i wan use com' den ii stand beside him..he replied' ii just used' den ii stand there looking at him..my mum shout from her room ' tmr got work still don wan to slp ah, tmr how to wake up!' ii remain silence. Den a small conflict btw my bro and ii....ii said ' mai gong jiao wei la' cos..ii believe, he played very long le...zzz den my mum came out...3 of us...outside the dining room...my mum looking at mii..den ii asked her ' why you called mii 6 times den call xuan ( my cousin) ? Sis go out shopping until 10+ reached home oso can, bro go out 12+ reached home oso can..I NOW GO OUT FIND JOBS!!! And you are chasing after mii. I told you ii got interview at 7.15 le lohHx.' den she said ' cos you said you reached home at 7-8pm' Den...ii said...' you think jobs easy to find? Not i don wan to find..is i tried my best le. Tmr the jobs ii gg to work oso introduced by my cousin de!' den she silence...' you think work 1 day $60 somemore 12 hrs easy to do ah?' i cried..zzz dam tired...haiis..den she soft hearted le..she said den don do la...jurong point got one job..den ask mii to go there...easier loh...zzz okie..ii listened to her...ii called my cousin..she don wanna work there...-.=" said will mit a lot of junior..it is like..well you wanna work den...you hab to faced the fact wad..zzz but she don wan..ii said called her back ltr..den now here blogging..

Actually..after ii listened to my mum and called my cousin...my mum went back to her room..ii reflect on my attitude...it is bad..real bad....my mum maybe just concerning about mii....cos she noe ii am not feeling quite well so she tot wad happened to mii..and yet ii vent anger on her..haiis..oh man now think of it...ii cry again ..zzz really feel sry about it....

Well tat's wad happened today..zz

Updated

Well ii had promised my mum and dad ii had stop mapling, and this maple game had already dlt and re install, dlt and reinstall back to my com mani times zzz well....mostly is bcos, ii had made my decision in quitting and dlt maple..my bro ask mii install back cos he wanna try smth...that's crap thou..hahax

Yesterday....ii re install back..cos of my best friend's birthday today..and he ask mii to come his birthday party at night in maple...ii told him, ii will ask my friends to log in for mii..and he said don wan..zzz wan mii to come...l0ls no choice....ytd ii re install back maple at ard..11.05pm? ii think so..it's about tat time..den log in..l0ls saw my friends, jervis, he so scary worx..1st time see him so angry..the reason he so angry..sry ii cant say here =x hmmx...

Ytd night my bro came back from orchard wee said wan play bball, l0ls long time nv heard him say this sentence, abit enthu about it..den ii said ii oso wanna play..Early in the morning l0ls 7am woke mii up..zz den ii slp until 8 am den wake up =x hahax...den we went to play bball xD tired...and painx den we go back home, bro treat me drinks! ahahah xD den walked home tiredly..

hahax and here ii am blogging xD l0ls kris don say my blog is died le, ii now got always update le.

Man next week taking result...ii so scared about it..ii scared ii will disappoint my dad and mum..and those who trust i can do it...haiis...sadx..and scared..

And hmmx..wad's more...ahh ii forget wad ii wanna type le...OH YA finally found a job xD 1 week work 6 days..morning 8am to 8pm, 12 hrs, $70 per day, quite a good pay bahx...means 1 hr about $5.83? l0ls start work nxt monday xD weee~ work with my cousin~! hahax...in factory =x coffee factory..finally..after so mani month of slacking and stoning at home =x

BYGONE~!!!

Well just now went to look at my darling column den look at the blog - Sad Past~ l0ls well uu guys should noe this blogspot contain my unhappy past~ yea..ii read those post~yepx..and after reading it...ii really hope..really wish....that this yr 2007 CAN REALLY BE A GOOD YEAR FOR MII!!! haiis...on 2005, got betrayed by Irene, tat year ii was taking N level. At Dec 2005 ii wish can hab a happier year in 2006. Never did ii wonder....2006 that yr, O level year...is from bad to worse to worst..yea...more unhappiness occured. And ii saw mani of those post, ii said my 'friends' don trust mii, tat's y they don tell mii etc...yepx...seriously and honestly, nw ii tink...they keep saying ii can be trusted and ii seriously nv do anything tat make them lose their trust on mii, but they nv choose to tell mii anything..well...onli sometimes..after things happened le, den tell mii. Ha..well let bygone be bygone~ ii really hope this yr 2007 can be a great yr ahead -.="

Today is such a tiring day~ l0ls hmmx, ii rmb, maybe this yr 2007 in jan, one of the day, ii in a really bad mood. den ii shoot back to any words my bro and sis said. Well -.=" ii always like tat de..bad temper, thou ii tried to control it...den my mum and sis went to grandma hse bahx..or no..ii think they went to see firework, left mi and my bro at hme..ii was playing maple..suddenly no mood to talk, choose to be silence again. So when ii usually should be chirping around in maple -.= ii became a dumb person. I lazy to talk, and ii lazy to ans when they call mii...den my bro who was watching tv came forward see mii played...den he said y don wan ans, ii said don wan loh..don feel like. den suddenly, he said ii attitude prob, no wonder friends all leave mii. l0ls den ii shout back, you don hab the right to say other if uu also hab attitude prob. Den he looked mii , den he switched off the tv and sit beside mii played. Suddenly silence, den ii said, not my friends leave mii cos ii hab attitude prob or wad. IS I LEAVE MY FRIENDS! Den ii said wad for hab friends..den l0ls ii cried ii said everything ii told him wad bad things, wad happened in my sec 4 and sec 5 sch life. He quietly listened. He told mii this sentence: If you cant walked out from the past, uu cant grow. 'yea i noe' ii said. Just let mii b for a while..maybe ii didn't really cry enough when all those things happened. Den after ii cried out, ii will feel better and walked out from past. Yea well this kind of scene(my bro and ii said out our sad things) happened 2 times and both is while ii am playing maple and of cos moody. l0ls the 1st time is when ii am sec 4 bahx..yepx..the irene things..1st time got betrayed until so jia lat de...den the 2nd time is all things tat happened.... hahax...crazy...hmmx...yea my bro..other than his attitude and bad temper..he is the best bro ever...but haiis...if he can try to think for others..tat would be the best....

I found someone ii like =x and ii think ii got hint him or told him indirectly..but...he..either nv give mii ans...or...he...giv stupid ans..dam it siax...he hab someone he like le..den ii shld forget him!!! Yea, ii trying hard to forget him~!! Siyin Jia you!! you can do it..ahahah =x